For IRL Places I Frequent
Pointless scrutiny on my life would have made sense years ago when I did not know that ADHD was my primary diagnosis.
Somehow, this all started a few years later and while my ADHD was stabilizing. If I was not this strong, invading someone's personal life excessively in addition to hacking their store can put any stable person into a panic. I did not get taken down; however, still, what in the actual heck is this even for?
You cannot convince someone that you care about them when you are putting stumbling blocks in their own online business or feigning concern while creating conditions *opposite* to reducing overstimulation and so on in their life?
Should I get brain scans to prove that my ADHD is real? What is the reason behind all of this? Does not sound like it is a good one.
If you are from a place I frequent in real life (you will know what I mean once you read this, if you don't know me in real life, please ignore this because I'm not divulging my location):
I wanted to inform you of a situation that has come to my attention.
Some individuals, both those I no longer interact with and current contacts, are attempting to use my ADHD diagnosis and past burnout (which has been resolved through workplace accommodations for a medical disability and home rental situation accommodations) to gain personal information about me and likely build a narrative of sorts. (It's hard to do that with a guarded person, but have fun trying I suppose).
(Do not misconstrue a guarded person as paranoid, view them as duly self-preserving). Trust is earned.
These individuals may approach places I frequent, claiming to be concerned, in order to gather details about me. This was an underhanded/covert crusade against my peace and quiet at home, my doorbell camera, and my quiet workouts, in addition to attempts to annihilate my free will to choose my personal circle, who I engage with personally about my private life, who I accept advice from, and with whom I share personal information on my personal time off duty.
It could be underlying hatred and of course, controlling the narrative to justify their own inadequacies in some manner as the ambushing tactics were violating my daily privacy, peace, and my ability to go about my daily life without randoms purposely forcing themselves onto me.
In order for me to be bothered, the attackers would have to be people that I consider important and I don't. I genuinely don't care. I'm just tired that my time is being wasted, oh well, I'll make up for it somehow.
Someone not only wanted to control the narrative, they wanted to control my life as I triggered their insecurities just by being myself it seems? They must have vilified me to get people to agree to monitor me IRL?
Invading people's daily life is unfounded and resulting removing my personal dignity based on a disability and implying that disabled people require excessive and almost disconcerting levels of surveillance (designed to trap me into a reaction) - this undermines basic autonomy.
I don't know if this is a coincidence, but ever since I started working from home and I got approved for doing that under a disability accommodation, oddities occurred around my dwelling place. It is a very severe disability. It is as if people took every part that I described in my "what causes ADHD mental overstimulation" blog post decided to re-create it around my dwelling place as the people of my surroundings disrupting my peace and quiet was not nice or kind. People around here mind their business, but they haven't been doing that in the past 11 years overall as they know I am quiet and reserved. It only started happening in the past 2 years.
These orchestrators/people are not God in my life and undermining my personhood, human dignity, personal autonomy is a violation of human rights due to a disability. It is infantilization and undermining personal dignity based on a disability of all things. A lot of people like to conceal control as care so that they can get away with annihilating the self-determination of seemingly weak people to make them seem in capable of things on their own.
I dislike tyranny.
There is no excuse for behaviour like this in 2024, it is a human rights violation.
There is nothing caring about a covert campaign to destabilize a person and annihilate their personal dignity (it's controlling). It's very easy to conceal the motives, but when it is repeated and orchestrated in the target has shown that they don't want to deal with that kind of thing, you're doing the opposite of what they actually need. And you know what you're doing.
Monitoring someone's surroundings or outsourcing your dirty to get information about their daily life is not caring especially if the target shows no signs of inability to care for themselves and all they have is ADHD (that's an invasion of personal privacy/human rights). That is control. It is especially crass if you already have access to that person. If you don't have access to that person, then you have no business being concerned.
There no evidence of ill-health on my part to justify this nuisance (false care) and undermining/chaos-creation especially if things stay out of the way of my fitness/recharge time.
I have the right to limit my time and energy to only those who are truly necessary in my life as I have a low social battery.
This covert undermining has gone on for too long now and I can only speculate on what excuses they'll use.
It undermines a disabled person's right to self-determination. Imposing neurotypical ways of living like not being quiet or private like I am naturally is covert discrimination, and implying to third-parties that I need surveillance by people I do not even know or who would not be able to break into my circle that closely as I have the right to choose my circle is not acceptable and will not be tolerated.
I have undergone *numerous* medical exams confirming my ADHD, in addition to confirming that my previous burnout was in remission, so some people may have taken my New York Post press feature about my health (years ago) too far.
With my work and business staying in their rightful lane, I should have no issues as nothing is hijacking my *limited* personal time belonging to my personal life for mentally recharging and my right to disconnect.
In addition to this:
My Shopify store, Twitter, Phone Location, and Life have been "hacked" by various people.
All of this, with and an overall creation of chaos around my real life by enlisting people near me to cause me issues.
It's not my style for my content not to be positive and uplifting, but sometimes the only way for you to be protected in life is being vocal.
It could be many groups involved, mostly out of disrespect for my different focus in life and various choices.
Self-preservation is protection of oneself against potential harm; however, outright evil or intrusion that someone wants to justify for themselves is using the concept of justification to conceal outright harmful actions that appear strategic anf calculated.
Their intrusion is unwelcome by me, needless, and unfounded - and I am simply informing all places I frequent proactively.
If anyone asks you for information about me, how I look, how I am, or feigning concern about my wellness, please decline the request out of protection for my personal space and privacy. They should stay in the areas of my life relevant to them (if they have access to me).
The monitoring spirit tactic undermines my self-determination/dignity.
That's covert punishment for a disability or remote work (if that's the root cause of their hate) and telling others the person should be ambushed and monitored? I, or anyone else, do not owe sharing our private life or welcome into our private life or discussing our private life with anyone to suit their agenda if it infringes on our protective boundaries.
Please note that I will reject you outright if you try to push yourself onto me as a fake friend or connection just so that you can report back to headquarters or are forceful especially in areas of my life designated as private, I owe nothing beyond basic grace.
This is how I protect myself knowing that someone is deliberately creating hate trains and a "quit your job" campaign where weirdos come my way sounding scripted. This has happened too often to dismiss as coincidental and they use trigger words that *only* a few people know.
I do not tolerate intrusion in my life and I fully reserve my gym and home time, especially for peace and quiet, which is a requirement for me to continue to be able to focus and function to provide for myself.
I'm not going to have anyone toy with my life and do the opposite of what I have stated I need because if it was genuine care, there would be no scripted robots sent to my gym time (alone time) to attempt to force me to change career paths to appease the orchestrators when I am in a disability-accommodated remote job (that some seem to hate me for and again, the only defence I have is being vocal, don't give me anything to speak up about and there won't be any issues).
I will not have my human dignity eroded for anyone else's agenda and I *choose* my personal circle and with whom I share my time, my space, my daily business, and my private life's information or personal information in general.
No one gets access to my medically required fitness time for their personal gain/agendas over my survival (if they're not a child or dependent) as not only my brain is shut-off, a severe disability that manifests itself like my ADHD based on a noradrenaline issue requires heart-rate and BP monitoring and it's as consuming as having a child.
I've been more than happy for the past two years as my workouts are un-bothered/sacred so scrutiny isn't justified.
The only time I made an error in judgement in figuring out what I needed for my medical situation was before I knew that the diagnosis was primarily ADHD (with anxiety only as an escalation marker). Past that point (which was years ago), self-determination and personal dignity are the name of the game.
Why they create chaos?
I don't have it "easy" or too peaceful/good, I have an invisible disability and accommodations level the playing field, it's 2024, welcome to future where wickedness doesn't win. Messing with my daily life via recruiting others and my Shopify store didn't stop my happiness. It didn't.
Clearly, if I work some evening shifts because of my disability, then I'm going to do my errands during the day. I am always curious as to why people that don't live around me seem to know my every move on a day-to-day basis?
***All I do is work my two lanes, do fitness content, fundraise, and go to the gym and have a small circle as that's all I can afford with my mental bandwidth and my ADHD (severe disability) and I don't bother nobody.***
If someone uses my online persona as an excuse, actually, no, well-adjusted grown adults who appreciate my content don't feel entitled to micromanaging all aspects of my life or my real life, they understand that my limit is showing up here online, but my daily life is duly private as I'm a person too, so no, it's not normal.
If they resort to using third-parties, they are not "close" enough to me to be invading my life on this level because if they "knew" me well enough to be "so concerned" they would not resort to this, they'd already have access, they'd be trustworthy, and they wouldn't erode the "self-determination" and "dignity" aspect of the human right to daily privacy irrespective of their unfounded excuses which is turning normal inquiries/questions/concerns/matters into a "low-hanging fruit" to vilify you.
Ascribing wellness-meters to stuff that has nothing to do with it is a sure-fire way to run disabled people as far away as possible from you. We don't need fabricated wellness KPI's. We are self-aware enough to know ourselves.
Those living nearby have been impeccably respectful of mutual personal space and privacy for 11 years. I was surprised that suddenly, that had changed. It coincided with working remotely in terms of the dates when the nosiness ramped up.
Thank you for your cooperation in refusing to disclose anything to these monitoring spirits, whoever they are or claim to be. 👏
Much appreciated!
Yours truly,
Karisa Karmali